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draconisregenaThoughts for the day...
I got to listen to him sleep last night...It was wonderful because even though I couldn't see him I know just how peaceful he looked. There's so little of that in his life. Hearing him whisper my name in his sleep though...Gods. I cried.
It's such a beautiful thing to watch men who truly love their children. God watching Richard and Collin interact, it just fills me with such a warm fuzzy feeling. *happy sigh* Especially when he came in when he couldn't sleep. I just watched and smiled. It warms my heart.
I sang for him today. I've never really done that before for anyone.
Im toying with my necklace...I think I need to take the ring Greg gave me off of it. I've been wearing it because he was a apart of my life that was still important to me. It's not anymore. It seems wrong to wear it, even around my neck when I am so in love with someone else. I've been wearing a simple silver band on my left hand to discourage intrest from the men in the plant.
And now for what a lot of you have been waiting so patiently for...
The morning of March 23rd. I woke up again to him looking into my eyes. That is just beyond sweet, even though I think it was silly that he didn’t cuddle up with me when he was cold. Oy. God it was good to wake up next to someone. It was one of the best nights of sleep I've had in years. Breakfast again and general chatter we realized we needed to get Collin from school. Now picking up the boy from school, that was interesting. I had been wondering how we were going to get there,, I had assumed that we’d walk. Not so. I get a “Going to hop on?” from him as I’m staring at his bike. Brain spins in a circle…”uh….no?” “Well we don’t have time to walk” “oookay…another one of those things I’ve never done before.” I rode double on his bike to the boy’s school. That was somewhat of an experience. Holy cow. He could tell just how scared I was at any given time by how hard I was gripping his jacket. It was not the most comfortable ride I’ve ever been on ( i had nowhere to put my feet) , and I could not see where I was going so I was…uncomfortable. I got very comfortable with my nose pressed against his back and my hands on his waist. I miss his scent. We snuggled by the fence till the boy got out of school. Apparently he saw me long before I saw him, because Richard heard him call my name. I was completely oblivious. God the rumors that he and his mother will have to deal with when they get to school on Monday with him. Poor baby. I really want to know what is said/asked on Monday. Heh. He for some reason felt the need to show off for me on the way home. He slid under the fence around the school to get to us. He wouldn’t look at me when I was looking at him for a while, I think he was sizing me up. He did say and was swiftly corrected that I was from England. It did amuse me that whenever people around heard that I was from America, I got these looks like I was some sort of freak. It seems most people around here believe what they see on TV about Americans and have never really met one. Met his mother, sister, and sister-in-law all in a period of about 10 minutes.…Neither brother. Would have loved to have met the rest of the family. We were supposed to have dinner all together…I was very disappointed when that fell through. I wanted to spend more time with his sister too…I REALLY hope she liked me, but there’s no way to know.
Then we went to Enschede, another beautiful city. We even took the car. It was the smoothest ride in a stick shift vehicle I have ever had. I was secretly very impressed. Dropping by the hotel we got my camera and I was able to give Collin a little blue moose that I’d bought for him before I’d left. He seemed very taken with it and he has since named it Charlie.
First however we had to go visit where he works. I wanted to see it after all it sounded interesting. Richard brought his coworkers candy, which they seemed very pleased with. Its this neat little place inside a football stadium. No I don’t remember the team name but I’m sure Richard will remind me of it eventually. And by Football I mean Soccer, but y’all know that. Inside after the glass steps (something I was very taken with) there was too much orange on the walls for my taste but the artwork on top of the orange was Truly interesting. There were flowers, painted Georgia O’keefe style up close, with henna style designs done in the background. It was almost like the flowers were growing out of a mehndi’d hand. We walked into one of the rooms of the callcenter and I listened to him have several conversations in dutch. I’ve not been more lost since my first day of school.. I could catch a word or two in every other sentence. It was crazy.
We finally got to Enschede proper… There was a hotel on the way that had the world painted on bits of it, so I bet if you rode around it you could see the entire globe. I have a picture of it. I enjoyed strolling through the city very much. Not just because I was holding the hand of the man I love and watching him light up as he showed me around. Every city we visited seemed to have another gothic church. It was fun, because apparently every time I would see one I would light up and he would laugh. The boy insisted on holding my hand near the whole time. It was adorable. It seemed he would rather hold my hand than Daddy's because when he asked Collin said No and went right back to me. I love that kid. We grabbed dinner in Enschede in a little place that Richard thought had to be an American chain restuarant. It turned out not to be and also turned out to be very good. I got the feeling he was just humoring me when he let me buy dinner…It was plain he didn’t want me to.
Collin went to bed around 1930, after playing a record. I didn’t get the tune of that song out of my head for HOURS. It was awful. I think that after that I fell asleep with my head against Richard's shoulder. I know I dozed a bit at the very least.
We rode bikes back to the hotel, I borrowed one of his mothers. That was a trip let me tell you. Not only do I not enjoy riding, It’s been quite a time since I’ve ridden a bicycle with only 2 wheels. I was a little wobbly but I managed it okay. I would not ride beside him (sorry baby) I was way too worried about following him. He’s used to riding on the terrain and taking the corners more sharply than I would…Oy. The details of the rest of the evening are MINE…
I got to listen to him sleep last night...It was wonderful because even though I couldn't see him I know just how peaceful he looked. There's so little of that in his life. Hearing him whisper my name in his sleep though...Gods. I cried.
It's such a beautiful thing to watch men who truly love their children. God watching Richard and Collin interact, it just fills me with such a warm fuzzy feeling. *happy sigh* Especially when he came in when he couldn't sleep. I just watched and smiled. It warms my heart.
I sang for him today. I've never really done that before for anyone.
Im toying with my necklace...I think I need to take the ring Greg gave me off of it. I've been wearing it because he was a apart of my life that was still important to me. It's not anymore. It seems wrong to wear it, even around my neck when I am so in love with someone else. I've been wearing a simple silver band on my left hand to discourage intrest from the men in the plant.
And now for what a lot of you have been waiting so patiently for...
The morning of March 23rd. I woke up again to him looking into my eyes. That is just beyond sweet, even though I think it was silly that he didn’t cuddle up with me when he was cold. Oy. God it was good to wake up next to someone. It was one of the best nights of sleep I've had in years. Breakfast again and general chatter we realized we needed to get Collin from school. Now picking up the boy from school, that was interesting. I had been wondering how we were going to get there,, I had assumed that we’d walk. Not so. I get a “Going to hop on?” from him as I’m staring at his bike. Brain spins in a circle…”uh….no?” “Well we don’t have time to walk” “oookay…another one of those things I’ve never done before.” I rode double on his bike to the boy’s school. That was somewhat of an experience. Holy cow. He could tell just how scared I was at any given time by how hard I was gripping his jacket. It was not the most comfortable ride I’ve ever been on ( i had nowhere to put my feet) , and I could not see where I was going so I was…uncomfortable. I got very comfortable with my nose pressed against his back and my hands on his waist. I miss his scent. We snuggled by the fence till the boy got out of school. Apparently he saw me long before I saw him, because Richard heard him call my name. I was completely oblivious. God the rumors that he and his mother will have to deal with when they get to school on Monday with him. Poor baby. I really want to know what is said/asked on Monday. Heh. He for some reason felt the need to show off for me on the way home. He slid under the fence around the school to get to us. He wouldn’t look at me when I was looking at him for a while, I think he was sizing me up. He did say and was swiftly corrected that I was from England. It did amuse me that whenever people around heard that I was from America, I got these looks like I was some sort of freak. It seems most people around here believe what they see on TV about Americans and have never really met one. Met his mother, sister, and sister-in-law all in a period of about 10 minutes.…Neither brother. Would have loved to have met the rest of the family. We were supposed to have dinner all together…I was very disappointed when that fell through. I wanted to spend more time with his sister too…I REALLY hope she liked me, but there’s no way to know.
Then we went to Enschede, another beautiful city. We even took the car. It was the smoothest ride in a stick shift vehicle I have ever had. I was secretly very impressed. Dropping by the hotel we got my camera and I was able to give Collin a little blue moose that I’d bought for him before I’d left. He seemed very taken with it and he has since named it Charlie.
First however we had to go visit where he works. I wanted to see it after all it sounded interesting. Richard brought his coworkers candy, which they seemed very pleased with. Its this neat little place inside a football stadium. No I don’t remember the team name but I’m sure Richard will remind me of it eventually. And by Football I mean Soccer, but y’all know that. Inside after the glass steps (something I was very taken with) there was too much orange on the walls for my taste but the artwork on top of the orange was Truly interesting. There were flowers, painted Georgia O’keefe style up close, with henna style designs done in the background. It was almost like the flowers were growing out of a mehndi’d hand. We walked into one of the rooms of the callcenter and I listened to him have several conversations in dutch. I’ve not been more lost since my first day of school.. I could catch a word or two in every other sentence. It was crazy.
We finally got to Enschede proper… There was a hotel on the way that had the world painted on bits of it, so I bet if you rode around it you could see the entire globe. I have a picture of it. I enjoyed strolling through the city very much. Not just because I was holding the hand of the man I love and watching him light up as he showed me around. Every city we visited seemed to have another gothic church. It was fun, because apparently every time I would see one I would light up and he would laugh. The boy insisted on holding my hand near the whole time. It was adorable. It seemed he would rather hold my hand than Daddy's because when he asked Collin said No and went right back to me. I love that kid. We grabbed dinner in Enschede in a little place that Richard thought had to be an American chain restuarant. It turned out not to be and also turned out to be very good. I got the feeling he was just humoring me when he let me buy dinner…It was plain he didn’t want me to.
Collin went to bed around 1930, after playing a record. I didn’t get the tune of that song out of my head for HOURS. It was awful. I think that after that I fell asleep with my head against Richard's shoulder. I know I dozed a bit at the very least.
We rode bikes back to the hotel, I borrowed one of his mothers. That was a trip let me tell you. Not only do I not enjoy riding, It’s been quite a time since I’ve ridden a bicycle with only 2 wheels. I was a little wobbly but I managed it okay. I would not ride beside him (sorry baby) I was way too worried about following him. He’s used to riding on the terrain and taking the corners more sharply than I would…Oy. The details of the rest of the evening are MINE…
