I'm sorry you lost a friend and didn't know they'd gone. And the way is worse.
I'd hazard a guess you know better than we do the clues to the "why". This sounds like a long night's conversation ranging far and wide.
Suggestion: Make a visit to her grave. Daylight, preferrably a sunny day. Take along your happiest memories of her. Mentally sprinkle them about you while you're saying goodbye.
The best way I've found to deal with these things is to keep the good memories fresh and let the bad ones wither and die, like keeping a flower garden.
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Date: 2006-12-29 10:05 pm (UTC)I'd hazard a guess you know better than we do the clues to the "why". This sounds like a long night's conversation ranging far and wide.
Suggestion: Make a visit to her grave. Daylight, preferrably a sunny day. Take along your happiest memories of her. Mentally sprinkle them about you while you're saying goodbye.
The best way I've found to deal with these things is to keep the good memories fresh and let the bad ones wither and die, like keeping a flower garden.