Its sad how I do my thinking when I am mowing the grass. It strikes me as odd that as I work on the house (i say the house because it has been made clear to me it is not MY house in any way) just how much I miss Bloomington. I'm tired of conversations that start "You need to do something with your life", "You need to learn social skills girl" and "When are you going to get off your ass and..." I hate it. I hate that nothing I ever do is good enough. I hate that I can't kick my ass out of this rut I'm in.
Rory, give your wife a hug for me and tell her I miss her, ok? Thats actually what I miss most about Bloomington, being at your house with the puppies and you and Dawn. I miss having someone to give me advice and tell me when I'm being an idiot. I miss doing yard/housework for food. Most of all though I miss the intelligent conversation, and having 2 of the smartest people I know treat me as their equals. Dawn has no idea how much that meant to me, and how much I love her for that. I miss the puppies, but that was a given.
I miss having Friends...More than you could possibly imagine.
And now that I've made myself cry we are done with that...Oh yes.
Good things did happen today however.
1. I had an interview with Murphy Ambulence Company. Made them laugh a few times which I think is a good thing. Did think I had one particularly good line though in my interview. "Everyone should be given the oppourtunity to do what they love. Most people never find out what that is, but I am one of those lucky few...I did." Will let you know how it goes.
2. Richard called me....**squee** I love getting unexpected phone calls...especially from Cute Dutchies like he is. Thanks sweetie.
Rory, give your wife a hug for me and tell her I miss her, ok? Thats actually what I miss most about Bloomington, being at your house with the puppies and you and Dawn. I miss having someone to give me advice and tell me when I'm being an idiot. I miss doing yard/housework for food. Most of all though I miss the intelligent conversation, and having 2 of the smartest people I know treat me as their equals. Dawn has no idea how much that meant to me, and how much I love her for that. I miss the puppies, but that was a given.
I miss having Friends...More than you could possibly imagine.
And now that I've made myself cry we are done with that...Oh yes.
Good things did happen today however.
1. I had an interview with Murphy Ambulence Company. Made them laugh a few times which I think is a good thing. Did think I had one particularly good line though in my interview. "Everyone should be given the oppourtunity to do what they love. Most people never find out what that is, but I am one of those lucky few...I did." Will let you know how it goes.
2. Richard called me....**squee** I love getting unexpected phone calls...especially from Cute Dutchies like he is. Thanks sweetie.