Wishes

[draconisregena]

I wish....I wish that I didn't know the statistics for pregnancy and loss. Right now, I wish that I didn't know how difficult it is for the human body to produce and sustain a pregnancy. How many things have to go perfectly to get past even the first set of cell division, much less to grow and implant and be born. I wish that I didn't know when Day 1 of a pregnancy was so that...when I don't start my period and get all hopeful, it wasn't so crushing when I do start 3 weeks later.

I wish I wasn't having to start the whole process over again. I will take another pregnancy test before I start injecting again, but with all the bleeding I've been doing I'm expecting a negative result. I know that 30-45% of fertalized eggs never make it to a sucessful outcome. I can't ignore the statistics, it's basic biology. Right at this moment, I'd be happier being ignorant.

Comments

[intendent.livejournal.com]

A patient of my FIL just had a child.. she's 45 and had to go to spain to use doner eggs :(

You'll have a baby. I know this in my heart. And I'll cuddle it and we'll all love it. <3

[aryanhwy.livejournal.com]

So sorry to hear it's bad news again. :(

[draconisregena.livejournal.com]

It's not precisely bad news since they now know the drug combonation to get me to ovulate. Miscarrying at this early stage means that there was something monumentally wrong with the embryo. Does not lead to a healthy child. Just...dissappointing that I have to start again.

[aryanhwy.livejournal.com]

Good news about getting the right drug cocktail! I hope this bodes well for your next attempt.

[draconisregena.livejournal.com]

I am cautiously optomistic. I am sure that it will take a few tries to get it right. Speaking purely on the statistics.