draconisregena: (star girl)
Today went almost exactly as I had expected. I got a kiss and a "Happy Valentines Day" from Richard and together we made lasagna.

There were 2 things today that did not go as I'd expected.
The first was at about 9AM or so we hear a knock on the door. Boy. Then shortly after we hear
"papa?" when responded to through the door boy says "ik heb ontbijt voor je gemaakt." Which means..."I've made breakfast for you." Richard and I exchange looks and in comes boy with a pair of breakfast sandwiches with chocolate sprinkles and 2 cups of Orange juice.

The Second thing that was entirely unexpected was this...

I'm laying in bed, after breakfast and I hear a thud. Richard was going downstairs, and then I heard a Yelp and "FUCK!" Any of those by themselves is not always a bad thing, but always is responded to by a "You ok down there?" All three together in a short amount of time is ALWAYS a bad thing. Yeah. Having slammed his foot into the little barrier at the bottom of the door between the hallway and the bathroom, Richard had in fact broken his toe. It's a lovely shade of violet all the way around and quite swollen. There will be photos. It's plain to me that it is broken, but there's nothing you can do for a broken toe even if you go to the doctor and get it seen.

Love it.


Oct. 30th, 2008 07:52 am
draconisregena: (Sweethearts)
I feel lousy. Lousy doesn't even begin to cover it. Full sinuses, the cough, the general blehness. European bugs are NASTAY! I'm gonna go back to sleep here in a bit...I hope. Maybe i'll have enough energy to try to have dinner made tonight before he gets home.

But you know what makes me smile? The warm form next to me in the morning that grumbles at the alarm clock, that cuddles closer to me when I start coughing when his horrible annoying alarm wakes me up. Even when I'm all nastay, he loves me anyway. Can't say that for any of the other partners i've ever had.

I Love you Ditch.


Jun. 10th, 2008 06:18 pm
draconisregena: (Sweethearts)
June 2nd.
It was cool, and drizzley and I was looking out the window at the city of Amsterdam. The gentle rocking of the boat put me at ease and was quickly rocking me to sleep. We had been walking about Amsterdam all day and it is a city of beauty beyond measure. But just shy of Midnight the city took on new meaning for me as [livejournal.com profile] dutch_ditch asked me to marry him. 8 hours before I had to leave him behind.

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2 plane rides and 12 hours later...
I was in his arms. There is joy to be found in the world, now if only I didn't have to leave.

It was not a bad flight all in all, but I have to say that Iberia has some of the best pilots that I have ever encountered. All in spanish though, with broken english bits. I was travelling completely by accident with a young woman who had odviously never been to Europe before. She was doing the whole "oh my god, noone's going to understand me, noone speaks english, oh look at the tiny cars they're so cute..." thing. It was irritating but it was cute all the same. She has no idea what she is getting into backpacking across Europe.

Doing the whole, domestic thing with the man I love was and still is wonderful. Weet je dat ik van je houd? We had a bit of alone time before we had to pick up the boy from school. He was Really happy to see me. It was really really cute. We went to Enschede for groceries and wandered around for a while. It was fun, up until Collin got lost. I did not need that blast of adrenalin on top of jet lag. It was scary, expecially when we could not find him.

Oh, and the next time he asks me to take the boy to school...He WILL provide directions. THere will be none of this "Oh the boy knows the way..." I got so lost coming back, I had to backtrack to the school and then try to meander my way back to Het Nardusboer. It was a nice walk, but it was annoying.

More later.

Oh...Ix...Know you where I can get a Mac cord with a Dutch plug connection, or do I just use a regular adapter for the life of the computer?


Nov. 30th, 2007 03:09 pm
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Miss it. Need it. There is no substitute for it.
August is too long of a wait.
Love you handsome.

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He is mine. He is wonderful. He woke me up this morning because I forgot to set my alarm.
I adore him. Best way to wake up tht I have right now. It is time for Rice Crispies, uniform and the daily grind.

Weet je dat ik van je houd? Met heel mijn hart en ziel. Ik altijd wel.
draconisregena: (Kiss)
This song made us both cry.
Word of the day: gezin

Brown Eyes
Remember the first day when I saw your face
remember the first day when you smiled at me
you stepped to me and you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
remember the first day when you called my house
remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide
and we both had a beautiful night

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised

and we haven't argued since
remember the first day we stopped playing games
remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul

i'm so happy so happy that you're in my life
and baby now that you're a part of me
you showed me
showed me the meaning of true love
and i know he loves me

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts
and he's missing me if he's not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul

He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul
draconisregena: (Kiss)
Woke up, rolled over to kiss him and he wasn't there. I was dreaming about him, and it was a really good dream too. Didn't even have anything to do with sex, just love and life and babies.

He would hand me things before I asked for them. My brain now wraps around the concept of a partner, someone who completes you and enhances you.

I miss everything about him. It's like home isn't home anymore.
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When I get lonely...I do things to keep myself from thinking about it. Since I miss that sweet Dutch man that I have come to love a great deal at the moment...I was VERY productive today when I got home from class.

Not that anyone particularly cares what all I did, but it's my journal and i'll post about what I want.

I got a few groceries, rearranged furniture in the bedroom, culled clothing, put down the new floor rug, emptied 2 boxes and started to pick up the disaster that is my floor and backroom.

Hoeveel dagen liefste?

Word of the day: hemel


Jun. 12th, 2007 11:32 pm
draconisregena: (Pretty)
Tired but can't sleep, laying in bed pondering life. Mine in particular, my future in specific.
Its not wrong to dream, and such dreams Do I have. There is such possibility...Such hope and yet. I want it now.

Don't want to wait any more.

I was just silly on the phone. My timing was off. That is okay it will make the man I love smile. I hope. Maybe.

Laying back down now. Carpet tack strips are evil, so are staples.

Word of the day: lief


Jun. 8th, 2007 07:34 pm
draconisregena: (flower)
I just read a LJ post. It made me cry. How does he know me so well. And how does he manage to eliminate any fears with a single word? That word was simply "no." It was how it was said.

There are not words, for how much I love this man...
There will never be enough words in English, Dutch or any language I could ever try to learn.

I am reminded of these words, and they are as true now as they were when I first read them.
Ik houd zo ontzettend veel van jou mijn lief. Laat me jou alstjebleift nooit kwijtraken.

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I suppose that yogurt is an acceptable alternative to put on your cereal....when it is 0520 AM and you realize there is no milk in the house. Breakfast for me is a required thing.

God it reminds me of Oldenzaal and Richard though. In a he should be here beside me kind of a way.
I get holiday pay this weekend...Yay for that at least.

Word of the day: eenzaam

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Day off.

May. 17th, 2007 09:22 pm
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I spoke to the landlord of the place I want to rent... It's an older house and needs some work but its a nice place. I could do good things with decorating it. *sigh* I'm not sure I want to pay $450 a month for it though. While thats a good deal for a 2 bedroom apartment, and this one is bigger than most...I think I could do better. I just love the fact that I would have a backyard to play in with this place. Gardening...mmm. The idea of having my own space. To do what I want with it. To share it with whomever I please.

I got the most adorable pictures today. They make me smile just looking at them. I've worn a smile all day. One of them is my new desktop image. Have I mentioned today how much I adore that handsome man that sent them to me?

Word of the day: lekker
draconisregena: (Default)
Okay this will amuse one of you at least on my list. I ran into one of my nearest and dearest friends, Elizabeth...(Shes's been my friend for 14 years) today. I've missed her so very much! She's pregnant with her 2nd child! She's due in September! All squealing aside...She teased me that I needed to get busy to give her 6 year old son a playmate, not to mention the baby. I wonder if i'll dream the sex of this baby, they find out on Wednesday!

How much are you worth?

3 things

Apr. 17th, 2007 07:59 pm
draconisregena: (Cry)
1. I passed my entrance exam into the Mclean county EMS system today. Joy.
2. I miss 2 people very very much right now. I want to be there.
3. Strawberry Ice cream is the second greatest thing for bringing your spirits up when you are down....I can't have the greatest thing at the moment....They're ~5,000 miles away.
draconisregena: (Default)
Thoughts for the day...

I got to listen to him sleep last night...It was wonderful because even though I couldn't see him I know just how peaceful he looked. There's so little of that in his life. Hearing him whisper my name in his sleep though...Gods. I cried.

It's such a beautiful thing to watch men who truly love their children. God watching Richard and Collin interact, it just fills me with such a warm fuzzy feeling. *happy sigh* Especially when he came in when he couldn't sleep. I just watched and smiled. It warms my heart.

I sang for him today. I've never really done that before for anyone.

Im toying with my necklace...I think I need to take the ring Greg gave me off of it. I've been wearing it because he was a apart of my life that was still important to me. It's not anymore. It seems wrong to wear it, even around my neck when I am so in love with someone else. I've been wearing a simple silver band on my left hand to discourage intrest from the men in the plant.

And now for what a lot of you have been waiting so patiently for...
More trip details )


Apr. 9th, 2007 10:24 pm
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I am sitting in a hotel chair in the teensy town of Spring Valley Minnesota. My Aunt Wilma's funeral is tomarrow morning at 10AM, a little church service at a beautiful little church in the center of town. I am both pleased and displeased to be here. The family time has been good I suppose. *sigh* It is not my family right now that I wish to be with.

Its good to have friends. [livejournal.com profile] lrdfaelan came down from the Twin cities to visit me here in spring valley. You rock sweetie, thank you. You made an evening with my family bearable. They are nice and all but I would have been gong crazy.

I've been backreading a certain someone special's journal this evening. I felt the need to read his thoughts because I cannot be there sharing them. There are a lot of entries in His journal that mention me as His best friend. I've fallen in love with my best friend...who would ever have thought. I've loved Him a lot longer than I even admit to myself.
draconisregena: (Default)
Okay so today was the most insanely busy day I've had at work to date. As I am decompressing I will share with those who wish to read more about my trip to the Netherlands, more about my trip!

Juicy details... )


Mar. 27th, 2007 03:22 pm
draconisregena: (Me)
I tried to gather enough energy to post this last night but alas someone plied me with alcohol, and put WAY too much vodka in my drink. I didn't notice how strong it was as they did a darned good job in covering it. I didn't even try to make it back to Bloomington yesterday night.

My trip was wonderful. It was everything I had hoped it would be and more, with the sole exception of the voyage there and back. That was disasterous. I will post more about both things later, when I have had time to process it more. I want to go back more than anything. I will in time, I think that this will become a regular trip that I save for. I left part of me there.

Now the primary thought in my head is..."if I ever HAD to be happy with just one person...I think I could..."


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